(I just learned to never write my replies directly into the email app. It crashed and erased half a page of text. Fuck, that made me tired enough to start crying.)
...yeah, I struggle with my anxiety and depression, with just doing everyday things, and it doesn't always feel like it's getting much easier, but I get more results? Pretty much. I think I'm learning to dwell less on things. It makes a world of difference that I have an understanding doctor so I can stay on sick leave. If I had to be out on the "job market" I wouldn't have the strength left to deal with this, and I'd crash again, sooner or later. I've got a good psychologist now, too, replacing a not so good therapist. I finally feel I've got a chance to patch myself up and that a few years from now I might actually support myself again.
Made some progress with my fic ideas, which is how I make myself feel better. :) I've turned it into my therapy tool. mostly busy with one based on the sonic games, dunno if you remember I've mentioned it...
I figured out some world building /plot things just lately. I think I'm finally on to the bigger picture, including the core themes, that'll hold it together. (Just like the games, I build the central plot around the ancient echidnas, but I want a world and history context for that plot to reside in.) it's looking like I can actually combine most of the concepts I want. I'm still stumped for some things (like what exactly the Little Planet is and how it affects the big planet, if at all) but I sense I'll work it out if I keep going like this.
(I've also had some new ideas about Emmy /Amy, I'd love to share of you're curious :) but I'd rather do that in a pm :p hard to keep track of what will be spoilers.)
What about you? Your depression giving you a hard time or did you beat it into submission? How do you like your apartment and new surroundings now?
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Date: 2015-09-30 11:40 pm (UTC)(I just learned to never write my replies directly into the email app. It crashed and erased half a page of text. Fuck, that made me tired enough to start crying.)
...yeah, I struggle with my anxiety and depression, with just doing everyday things, and it doesn't always feel like it's getting much easier, but I get more results? Pretty much. I think I'm learning to dwell less on things. It makes a world of difference that I have an understanding doctor so I can stay on sick leave. If I had to be out on the "job market" I wouldn't have the strength left to deal with this, and I'd crash again, sooner or later. I've got a good psychologist now, too, replacing a not so good therapist. I finally feel I've got a chance to patch myself up and that a few years from now I might actually support myself again.
Made some progress with my fic ideas, which is how I make myself feel better. :) I've turned it into my therapy tool. mostly busy with one based on the sonic games, dunno if you remember I've mentioned it... I figured out some world building /plot things just lately. I think I'm finally on to the bigger picture, including the core themes, that'll hold it together. (Just like the games, I build the central plot around the ancient echidnas, but I want a world and history context for that plot to reside in.) it's looking like I can actually combine most of the concepts I want. I'm still stumped for some things (like what exactly the Little Planet is and how it affects the big planet, if at all) but I sense I'll work it out if I keep going like this. (I've also had some new ideas about Emmy /Amy, I'd love to share of you're curious :) but I'd rather do that in a pm :p hard to keep track of what will be spoilers.)
What about you? Your depression giving you a hard time or did you beat it into submission? How do you like your apartment and new surroundings now?